"You made me feel worthless. Your rejection made me feel unlovable, like there was something wrong with me because I wanted you so badly. Your tirade when I set a few simply boundaries, made me feel crazy and insane. You used the word delusional, and I’ve settled on agreement. I’ve been doubting myself for months, and almost a year now, I’ve felt utterly devastated. Then you made me feel even more inconsequential when I told you I was destroyed from losing you, that my depression and flailing was because I loved you like I’ve never loved anyone. It doesn’t matter that I know you were diverting, deflecting and projecting all your own insecurities back onto me. It doesn’t matter I know you are incapable of empathy for anyone other than yourself. It doesn’t matter you are a narcissist and can’t really love me. None of that understanding on my part, seems to matter when it comes to how I still feel. I guess it’s that you don’t care how much you hurt me. You left an enduring wound, incapable of closing and healing. I don’t know how to rebuild from this utter loss of confidence in myself. If you were seeking to destroy me, you can rest assured, you did a wonderful job. "

- Payne Hawthorne