"I wish I didn't overthink. -- I have social anxiety - I worry, I overthink, I cling, and I don't relax. I stop and relax when I don't have to worry about losing people. The pushing away triggered this into overdrive, but that's my fault I should have handled it differently. I wish I didn't ruin everything. -- I'm truly sorry my social insecurities drive everyone away, I if could fix anything about myself it would be that. I wish I had the words that could change anything, but I don't. -- The only thing I can say is I'm sorry. I wish I didn't lose my friend. -- That's my fault. She isn't just a person, she isn't just replaceable by another person. She's beyond special in my eyes. She meant the world to me."

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