"Roaring filled my ears, and I staggered backward. I did this. I’d brought these monsters into our lives. I’d killed Eli, and now Nate had paid the price for it. Because of my actions, the person who had always loved me, the one I should have kept safe, was gone. Grief suffocated me and I gasped for breath, even as I wished it would kill me so I didn’t have to live with this pain. My legs buckled and someone caught me from behind. “I’m here, malyutka,” Nikolas said against my hair."

- Refuge